Post "home alone" effects

It sucks to wake up one day and realize everything u've been holding on to was just a lie. It takes a while for it all to sink in and when it does u feel like the comfort zone under u'r feet is slipping right away away. And regret floods in and anger and sadness leavin you confused if you should,for once, be selfish and feel pity for u'r pathetic fall or for everybody else who's been hurt in the process. Then it's all a haze for the next god knows how long. And all you wanna do is just let go and scream but you can't.. Because it's the only thing u've held onto for so long no matter what.


You know that things'll neer be the same.. That nomatter how much you try "getting over" it, it'll always haunt you. Remind you of that day when you woke up and the world came tumbling down. Remind you of the fact that all that you thought was special, they never were. Reminds you that at some point it was all u'r fault. And that u'll have to live with this for the rest of u'r life..

But then like what guruji Alisha Varkey says " Sometimes love calls for withstanding much hurt".. Because in the end love is what it's all about :)
 

Being the only one :/

              The thing bout growing up as mum dad's only child is i've always got what i've wanted. What more can a kid ask for besides barbies, bikes and chocolates.. Even better- i never had to share!But honestly it's one of those li'l joys of life that i miss. Not to forget those endless hours of having to sit all alone at home when mum dad're away at work.. *sigh*.. Wonder wut it'll be like to hav those petty fights over toys and clothes and who is loved more..Always been jealous of those pampered younger kids and how they take advantage of the elder ones.. Some say it's otherwise.. Like how the grass is greener on the other side.. And having an elder one or a younger is a pain cz they always put you in trouble by being the smarter one! Somebody to fight with, to hav endless talks through the night, to hit on the same guy(if i had a sis that is :P) sonuds fun! Atleast it's anyday better thn sittin all alone at home wondering what to do when mum n dad're at work :(

Guess i'll never let my children feel this way!!

Random Thoughts.

Sometimes it's so hard to hold on, even when u knw that it's the best thing that's ever happened to you.. Sometimes all u wanna do is just let go and scream u'r lungs out.. But then in the end, even after all those glitches, u realize why you never let go!

Aptitudes, Hopes and Dejections..

Here we are, in final year, at the crux of our careers. And the only buzz that's taken over our lives is to pass out with a job in hand. Hours and hours of Aptitude seems to not get the 'job' done. Call it bad luck or wutevr but the dejection is written clear on everybody's face. I'm sure it's not like anybody wants to work for an IT company. But something is better than nothing! Wut worsens it is the way people come and "console" you for the lost cause. There's one side of joy for those who cleared and there's the other side where you don't know what to feel for u'rself.. Hmm.. Life's tough! :)

Some perky thoughts bout the year that's goin by..

Adieu 2010

It's 11.50pm and counting.. Wishes flying all around for a hearty and wonderful 2011. Wow i must say, 2010 went by pretty fast! Wut an eventful year it was.. Memorable, sweet and all the adjectives you could add. Though the end did give me quite a "traumatic" reality check, i miss all wut went by. And since airtel's charging me a cruel 1.50rs to wish all who i want to, looks like i should resort to the more economic and ever faithful facebook to do the job!

Watching the sunset was lovely. Definately photograpic material! But since i'm no good at photography, forgive the tragedies of the above image :). I was trying to capture the setting sun and not the lamp-post. *sigh*

Aaand it's 2011.!Gotta go wake up the neighbours!! ;)

Perky Thoughts..

Writing a diary always seemed simple and easy and safe. I could pen down any thought i wanted to. Loved writing until the time it got really DANGEROUS! It's hard to keep u'r secrets within a diary that's easily accessible to u'r "nosy" roomies ;). And somehow my novel like write ups intrigued them so much that they actually sat down and read all of it!! So quit writing about 3 years back. Though i've been wanting to write all these years, it just never was the right time or the right mood. Sometimes i do wonder what the condtion of all those diaries stacked away in the attic will be by now, besides being food for the silver-fish. And in a way i'm sure if i read all of it now i'll probably realise how stupid they all were.

After 3 long years i have a very strong feeling that writing a blog might not be as easy. Though i still believe in the contemporary pen-and-paper style, the smell of paper, ink smudges, strikes n scribbles, cz nothing beats a personal touch, i guess it's definately worth the try! Afterall it'll give my lazy rusted brains some exercise.
So here we go..

Some PERKY THOUGHTS..


P.S  Dear blog, forgive me if i abandon you in the due course of time. It's not cz i hate you. It's only cz i've moved on to other "interesting" things to do like wasting time and being lazy.

Gratitude to those who inspired :)

Writing was never a passion. But loved scribbling. Behind notebooks, on the desk, on the wall and where not! And that's when a few people inspired me to write a blog.. So here's to those who ate my head to start writing..
John Gregory- Owner of quite a few blogs of his own!
Christopher Fernandes- The wordsmith and my very personal dictionary! Can't do without you :)
Josh Mathew- The one who i experiment my writings on!
And Alisha Varkey- My BIGGEST inspiration and the best roomie anybody could ask for!!
Oh and ofcourse Rishin Mathers- For spending the wee hours of night to find a name!! :D